why am i hear? i constantly ask myself that but i never get any answers. i believe there is a god but i continuously do wrong things and i cannot stop myself im so compulsive that i can help myself i steal from my family and dont want to but cant do anything about it i am so anti social that it scares me why would god give me this miserable life? i have no freinds i stay in a barn with my grandparents all day and they try to get me out but i absolutely refuse because i am so scared of society (and i dont know why) i want to kill myself but i dont have the guts to do it some 1 please help me